Lately, I've been consumed with thoughts about human relationships. What exactly is it that brings people together or tears us apart? Yes, many times it is situational; however, there are times when it feels like there is something stronger that either attracts us toward one another or away from one another.
It amazes me how much we are able to care about people we barely know. We can sit there and replay events in our heads only to over-analyze every word and every move. We can spend hours wondering whether there is a slight chance that our actions are being reciprocated. Yet, meanwhile, we tend to overlook those that care the most about us.
What is it that makes a stranger feel so familiar while others seem to be getting more and more distant? What is it about certain people that make us want what we always ran away from? How is it so hard to let go of something that never even felt significant for a moment yet we are able to magically dismiss what has been holding us back for years?
We go out of our way for those that pay us no attention and don't give a second thought to those that go out of their way for us. At the end of the day, we all want the same things. We want to be surrounded by those that truly care about us. So what is it that makes the chase so desirable?
I have the tendency to always want what I can't have and disregard what is right in front of me. I am currently making a conscience effort to break this ugly habit. Although I'm trying, my heart just doesn't seem to be in it. Isn't there a reason some catch our attention as opposed to others or why some have the ability to have us doing things we normally would not? Just because something looks right on paper doesn't mean it will feel right in the heart.
Leading me to the never-ending battle between the head and the heart. It's not so easy to convince yourself to feel a certain way, just as it isn't easy to make yourself stop feeling a certain way.
"Man is a knot into which relationships are tied."