Uncertainties and difficulties always lead to the hunt for comfort. Most of us will find ourselves resorting to the past, to someone, something or somewhere, that can provide some sense of peace or happiness, even if it's just momentary. I've done it in the past and get the urge to do it again every now and then, the urge to return to the familiar. It's safe. However, for the first time in years, I don't want to resort to the past. I'd rather stay in this obscurity and uneasiness while I wait for something, someone, somewhere better. After all, what's the fun in always playing it safe?
For the first time in years, I have a clear vision of what I want. I can actually visualize the future I'm working toward. I can see it. I can almost touch it, it's so close. Allowing myself to retreat at this point would only hinder my growth. And isn't that what life is all about, to constantly continue to grow and learn to be better?
"There are far, far better things ahead than any we leave behind." -C.S. Lewis