Lose Control

Why do people have the need to control everything? Why are we given the impression that we have control over it all? Cause really, we don't. Everything is not as easy as just taking a pill, which surprisingly is not all that easy for me.

I've recently realized that sometimes not being in control can be the most beautiful. As long as I know that I've tried my best or done as much as I can, I'm content. The rest is not up to me. Whether things work out or not, at least I won't look back and blame myself for any regrets. Things don't usually turn out the way I expect them to anyway, but at least I won't wonder what if. I don't like what-ifs. Well, what if I had done this? What if I had said that? Take charge of your life, but at the same time, there is only so much each of us can do. Take advantage of what you do have control over, and learn to let go of the rest. Let life happen to you. We have control over our actions. It's important to do and say whatever is on your mind regardless of anyone else's judgments or societal norms. Don't hold yourself back. Also, don't let your pride get in the way of something you want.


Does it really matter who did something first or who said something first? We spend so much time waiting for someone else to initiate the things we desire. Who cares. In the end, you are going to be the person regretting not making that phone call or not giving that person a chance.

I'm definitely a thinker. I think too much and over-analyze everything, but I'm trying to change. If something feels right, it probably is.

Priorities

There is beauty all around us, we just get so caught up in our lives whether it's with school, work, or whatever else we may have going on at the time, that we don't even get the chance to notice it. Take a look outside: trees, flowers, the sky, just to name a few. We don't get the chance to enjoy the world around us. It can be something as simple as going to a park and having a picnic. We all live busy lives, and sometimes it is really difficult to make time, but it is possible.

It's also really important to find that balance between school, work, friends, family, and your own personal alone time. Why is it that when we have to pick, we usually end up picking any of the above over spending time with the family?

"Our most basic instinct is not for survival but for family. Most of us would give our own life for the survival of a family member, yet we lead our daily life too often as if we take our family for granted." -Paul Pearshall

So, this summer I have made it a priority to do simple things in nature, such as going to a lake or even going swimming in the middle of the night, as well as spending time with my family. My mom and brother are honestly my world.

Summer highlights so far:

Zip lining in North Carolina with my cousins. My cousins and I take an annual white water rafting trip which I always look forward to, but this year, we decided to embark on a new adventure. It was so much fun! I was harnessed to a cord in the middle of the woods and mountains, and I glided from one end of the zip to the other. The place we went to had a couple of zips overlooking the river. I basically flew over Pigeon River at 35mph, and needless to say, the view was nothing less than amazing.







Yes, that's me.











Savannah with my mom and her bffs. We spent two days at the beach just chillin, relaxin, and enjoying the water, sand, and seafood. My entire face got sunburned, and I'm a few shades darker, but I would say it was worth it. Not only do I love the beach, or water in general, but I love my mom and how close we have gotten. There's a level of respect and authority that she will always maintain as my mother, but at the same time, she is my best friend. I wouldn't trade quality time with her for anything.








Isn't she gorgeous?!









Also, I started this blog mostly just for myself and my writing, but I have gotten a lot of feedback. I'm glad a lot of people have been reading it and liking it. Whether you like something or hate something, let me know. I'm open to suggestions and would love to hear your thoughts. :)